So I did a thing today…I ended a toxic relationship…

Honestly, I was avoiding what anyone had to say because I didn’t want to hear it; and subconsciously, I was blaming my reactions on their words…which is a fricken cop out. I am a grown woman. At some point the competition, the reactions, the power of others needs to stop.

My social work friend…whose needs are you meeting?

Listen, I get it. It feels good to help. It feels good to be needed. However, when we solve every problem for our client, we are meeting OUR needs, not theirs. The client may be grateful and express themselves as such, but who did we actually help? Who’s needs were fulfilled?

Am I worthy? Anxiety is a bitch.

The irony is that the majority of things worried about fail to come to fruition. People who have never experienced excessive worrying will often tell us to just stop thinking about it. And therein lies the problem, we simply cannot. The more we try to not think about something, the harder it works to stay up front and personal in our thoughts.

Anxiety, is it real? Or all in our head?

The grown up me looks back and recognizes my delinquent behavior for what it was…anxiety and depression. I was begging for attention, regardless of positive or negative. My interactions with adults were minimal, as my dad worked nights and I didn’t live with my mom. My teachers saw very little of me, as I only attended school sporadically. When I was there, I was apathetic and/or disrespectful.

No resolutions for me this year. It’s all lifestyle.

Discipline begins in your thoughts. If you cannot control your thinking, you will inevitably reverse back to the previous mentioned cycle. And that cycle leads to a lack of motivation for anything positive. Dig deep and find your “why.”  Why do you want to be healthier? What are your reasons?

No one should die alone…Death is not a solo act.

It isn’t a secret that my mom and I had an adversarial relationship, but she was my mom. She gave birth to me. She fought her demons, but don’t we all? I wasn’t sure what to expect when I arrived, but for hours, my aunt, uncle and cousin and I sat around and told silly stories, which I am sure my mom listened to. While it was a shitty time to visit, we actually had a few laughs.

Seniors, suicide and a sense of hopelessness

In the state of Nebraska, suicide is the 7th leading cause of death for ages 55-64 and the 18th leading cause of death for those over 65 (Suicide Facts and Figures, Nebraska 2020). Additionally, Census.gov reports that 14% of Nebraska residents are seniors and 30% of them are living alone. That leaves a high percentage of that 70% residing in long term care or assisted living facilities. And due to Covid 19, the majority of those facilities are on lockdown.

Parenting Moment 2.0

And as their  parent, I want to protect their innocence. I want to shield them from the ugliness of our world, however that may look. But, as their mom, my job isn’t to do that. It is to equip them and empower them so they can handle whatever comes their way. God help me in doing that. There is a reason they say it takes a village…

The Circle of Life… in real life

The best unsolicited advice I can give anyone reading this is the following. “be gentle with yourself”. Grief can come in like a fricken hurricane, go into a wave pool and return to a level five storm before we even know what we are dealing with.

You are always so positive…no, I’m really not

I truly believe that many of us are doing the best we can and by tearing others down, we are also revealing the deepest and darkest parts of ourselves that we keep hidden. Being an asshole does nothing but let other’s know we are focused on the wrong parts of ourselves.

Stop playing the "I can't" song.

#beabetteryou

I love working with Cindi! I’ve seen her transform her own health and wellness as well as help myself and many others! Cindi is not only honest and sincere, but she is is truly passionate about helping others love the way they look and feel. This passion she has for health is contagious! She has such a positive and encouraging attitude! What I most appreciate about Cindi is that she not only talks the talk, but she also walks the walk! She is truly a “Wellness Warrior!” A.T.


Who knew when you walk into my life to write about me that I would find such a caring wonderful friend, that truly cares about my health, wellbeing and the day to day, that as we all know can be brutal! Cindi is a perfect lady to sell “It Works” she believes and lives that life! I’m in! Thanks lady for brining me along and helping me find my best ME!!! W.B.